I'm sorry, I stepped out for cigarette.

I saw a blurb today talking about how we should never use the excuse "I don't have time" because "you have the same amount of time as Picasso, Einstein, etc". Awesome. I need to follow that advice a bit more. I work creative things to produce!!!!!!!!!!!

Because some things aren't so awesome

March 27 marked the 6th year anniversary of the death of my friend Alicia Rose Davis. Alicia was a young, hilarious, and charismatic girl who left us too soon. My most fond memories of her are dominated by laughter. What to learn from Alicia's accident... Don't drive with idiots, wear a seatbelt, and hug your friends.

Rest in Peace funny girl.

Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos. ~Charles M. Schulz

Twin Flames

I am very much intrigued by the concept of twin souls and have been so for several years now. The overall gist is that long ago as divine wholeness began to seperate for the polar universe experience, single non-gendered souls were split into yin and yang (male and female). The purpose of this was for gaining a full understanding of seperation, as one cannot fully appreciate what it has until it has experienced the opposite. Thus, long ago we made the painful decision to part with our other half and journey through many lifetimes seeking that sacred love we once parted with. If you are not a spiritual person, this concept could be considered silly or asinine. Whatever you believe, I find it to be a beautiful and romantic idea. Syncronicity has lead me to believe that such things are possible and inspire me to continue my own personal growth.

"Before one can physically unite with their Twin Soul, one must do the conscious work of healing and becoming whole within their self. Twin Soul love cannot exist in a codependent, ego-based relationship, or from a perceived "need" that the other person will make you whole. Both must often face separations while they strengthen their own connection to Spirit and find their strength and purpose on their own."

Even if you can't get into Twin Flames and Soul Mates, the artwork inspired by it can be absolutely beautiful.

The year of the Shark

According to the Chinese this is the year of the Tiger. They are wrong. The shark will prevail in 2010. It's imminent. My companions are blood thirsty like never before. I myself am feeling a tinge of hunger. It has been 4 months since my last attack and I cannot deny my nature, I am a predator. It seems Thresher has pulled some brief assaults recently. MAN DOWN!!! And Great White, from what I've gathered has pulled a solid blitzkreig on the small town of Santa Cruz, California. I was awoken last night at 2 a.m. by a voicemail brandishing the melody of "Bad Touch" by the Blood Hound Gang. This is no doubt a beacon to all sharks saying "Blood has been shed on the battle field". Crimeny.

As I sit here in the Saturday morning sun, I am feeling thankful for multiple things in my life. 1. The beautiful lizard on my shoulder, Ms. Crusty Buttons. 2. Push Jones' first performance was a success!!! 3. I will be in the bay area in 19 days. and
4. Not only will I be seeing mister wonderful, but will also be visiting with GREAT WHITE the legend herself. This both frightens and excites me because these two people I cherish will be in the same proximity for the first time ever. Great White Eversole is notorious for the gauntlets she'll run a man through before he is deemed a worthy challenger. In most cases, I've been in the position to play jury to Judge GW in regards to sizing up fellow shark's bait. I am now in the hot seat. God help me. Mister W has definitely peaked the interest of my Lady White, a direct quote "let's see what kind of man has kept Hammerhead so locked down on nights when I'm making out with 2nd grade teachers".
The poor bastard doesn't even know that I've practically purified myself in his honor. This shall be interesting....

“A hidden connection is stronger than an obvious one.”
Heraclitus of Ephesus

You can lead a horse to water..... if you have a horse.

Success! My black notebook has been recovered and yet, here I still am. I will continue to blog until I am bored with it, so there it is. On today's agenda..... horses.

10 Reasons Why I Love Horses (speaking in general terms)

1. They are very strong and muscular.

2. They are stupid enough to listen to me.

3. They are beautiful.

4. They are fast.

5. Their shit smells good.

6. They are vegetarians.

7. They take me up hills that I am too lazy to walk up myself.

8. They take dirt baths.

9. They are psychic.

10. They could give a shit what kind of music I listen to.

So I'm 90% sure that I will not be returning to my wrangling job in California this summer so my heart is wrenched. Recently I've been asking myself, "Where the hell am I going to be able to procure a steed that I can ride like the wind around Portland?" Well! While I was cruising craigslist.org the other day (big fan), I found an opportunity by which I might be able to lease a horse. Seventy-five buckaroos each month to be able to ride twice a week without someone telling me what to do which is, in short, exactly what I desire. I don't think I would be able to handle someone telling me how to ride a horse anymore, let alone where to ride a horse. If it were up to me I'd sell my car and ride a horse everywhere. Down with paved streets! Down with automobiles (mopeds, you're cool). Anywho, Mission Find-a-Freeking-Stallion is under way. I'll be riding this Sunday to check out which horse is best for me at a local stable. More about that later...

To my Clumsy Spirit Panda Flower- You are not forgotten. You are my first love and I treasure the two summers we spent frolicking, barebacking, backpacking, and sweating through the woods of California. You are a gangster for life. I will return for you someday my darling...

"And I miss you, like the deserts miss the rain"- Everything But the Girl

P.S. That last quote is kind of a joke but that in no way takes away from it's relevance. Thanks world.